December 2010
29 posts
giving relationship advice to my ex love of four years. not quite sure how i feel about it, but im not twelve. all i can really do is try and be honest. and listen. and try not to dick punch him for growing up after i stopped loving him. you live you learn. etc.
jumping the shark
my whole body hurts from this weekend.
i have found control after losing everything else. and no i haven’t harnessed a rising destiny.
just put it
on hold.
hold on
to indifference with the same
equal, desperate grasp. or wrap them around my finger and unwind like a faltering clock, until i lose circulation.
but it’s alright.
i’ve mastered those nerves,
and i’m not much into feeling these days.
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formspring.me
Ask me anything http://formspring.me/heatherdeanne
this is my childhood. this is my father. it might...
i am spent on change. if meaningful words strung together to diagram my life thus far into something worthwhile (were up for sale) i dont think i’d have the currency (current sea) to buy (cross) it.
i still feel new.
be genuine. i like a little pushback. don’t tell me what you think id like to hear.
Listen
i’ve been struggling with the concept of perception versus reality. how do you know whats real? you dont. you only know how you feel, and feelings dont change the world.
granted, feelings definitely have an effect on how you view the world, but thats different. and anyone with common sense knows it.
talking with my boss who is buddhist has been informative. beneficial id say. “people...
Listen
“speak softly, and carry a big stick.”
working, not hating it. no sleep, but when am i ever rested? everyone is feeling the holidays. im just coasting, waiting for whatever this is to come to a head. im sorry my entries are a bunch of nothing. ill start talking again soon.
“For now we’re just making out with the door unlocked.”
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I'd def say hi if I ever saw you....although then...
who cares. im seriously the creepiest. please say hi, awkward strangers are interesting.
Ask me anything
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you gay?
super.
Ask me anything
sometimes when i hear your name in passing, it pulls on my heart strings a little bit.
and this is still so much better.
i didnt like that tumblr was down for so long.
some of the people i surround myself with are so false it scares me.
